"Muzungu! Hiiii How are you??" |
On my first day, my driver Hussein conveyed to me in his broken
English that I am called “muzungu”. This
is what the children yell to me when I pass by in the car. They might just stare, but most of the time
they smile and wave and yell. From what
I gather, it just means “white person” and it’s not gender specific.
I think I now understand on some small level what it’s like
to be a celebrity (or a fish in a fish bowl).
Not in regards to all the money and fame, of course, but what it’s like
to be watched. All. The. Time. Everywhere I go, people stare at me. The children with their mouths hanging open
or smiling, the men with blank stares, or sometimes grins, and the women with
shy half smiles. I understand, and I
would probably do the same thing in their situation, but it’s exhausting. For one, I just generally don’t like being
watched. (: I also always feel as though
I might do something stupid or offensive. I am one of a limited number of Americans
these people have probably ever seen (in person). Second, I never know what they’re thinking,
and I can’t really converse with them.
And for a fairly relational and curious person, that’s tiring. Overall, this being watched thing definitely
curbs my usual travel desires of going on walks and exploring and looking for
new experiences (and in this regard I empathize with celebrities- how sad that
they can’t explore without all the attention).
Maybe I’ll get used to it before I leave.
I’ve also found that for some reason, my name is very
difficult for Ugandans to pronounce. They
usually just look at me and giggle. I
didn’t anticipate that because it’s pretty short, but it’s the long “A” sound. So I’ve taken to either saying that my name is
Omber or Nicole, my middle name. For
whatever reason, they’re quite adept at saying Nicole. My pronunciation is also very difficult for
them. Even if they speak some English, I
usually have to say things more than once for them to understand. They have a very soft and sing-songy, yet
deliberate way of speaking. When the
women say hello it’s usually “Hi, How are yoouuu”, in one breath without really
looking you in the eye. And they don’t
really shake hands, they more just hold your hand limply for what I consider an
uncomfortable amount of time. (: After
they say hello they usually mumble “you are welcome here”.
The family of one of the women in Nankoma, the farmer cooperative which I am giving trainings. |
The kids are all, of course, so adorable. They have such smooth beautiful skin and their
smiles light up their faces. I want to
squeeze them all, but I can’t without feeling really creepy. Also, yesterday a baby stared at me for a few
minutes and then her face slowly crumpled into tears. Maybe because I’m white? Or just scary? Or the baby was just stranging? I’ll tell myself the latter. I learned that Uganda is actually one of the youngest
countries in the world. Over half of the
population is under 15, which is just crazy and will obviously present a lot of
future employment problems. But anyway,
kids seem to be everywhere. Without the
many distractions of kids in the developed world, they spend most of their time
playing outside, running around, or helping their parents (and, of course,
yelling at the occasional white passerby). Thankfully, kids are now required to attend
all the way through primary school (middle school), and I believe secondary
school as well.
Boys carrying jackfruits along the side of the road. If you've never seen these fruits, more pictures will follow. (: |
I often feel like this experience is very surreal- like I’m
actually somehow driving through a documentary instead of witnessing these
things first hand. The stereotypical
pictures of too-short children with tattered clothes playing in the dirt in
front of a mud hut… they’re all around me.
I know that in many ways they’ll have a difficult life ahead of them,
but right now they look so brave, happy, and lively.
They help me imagine a more hopeful future for Uganda.
This was an ornery bunch. The first day they peeked out at me from behind poles and trees and I'm pretty sure they were daring each other to touch me because one of them eventually did. |